juz saw her blog... didnt wan to blog de. but juz no where for me to rely ler... perhaps u will c tis.. perhaps u wun. but.. yah.. dun care ler.. think wad u ought to think... i am juz sum1 hu is nth in ur eyes. cos no matter wad i do.. it will always b wrong.. for 16 yrs... frm the day i am born.. till nw.. nth is alwaes rit in ur sight.. i knew tt.. long ago..
tt dae behind tis door... i was initiially studyin.. listened to the quarrel.. listening... n i was crying.. i will nv forget wad u sae... "since i am the 1 tt is not using.. y muz i pay?" i was nt angry... juz damn sad... perhaps u dun mean wad u sae.. but as a third party listening to it.. guess wad will she feels? i was lyk??? wad the hell.. dint use??? think again... buy broadband... my fault lahs? yah.. of cos lah.. everiitnk is my fault frm head to toe wad.. since wen m i right...??? wad is fair? wad is unfair???
fair or unfair? wad is unfair wen the wholeroom is made by ur choice... nt mine... wad is unfair... wen the whole pc computer is ur stuffs n nt mine.. wad is unfair wen i only occupies 1 pathetic draawer out of 4.. wad is unfair wen the whole wardrobe i only take tt bloody small part... wad is unfair... wen the whole wall i onli can paste my stuufs in 1 pathetic corner.. cum to think of it.. did u ever think ?? did u evr try 2 stand in my shoes? there's more... wad is unfair??? wen mama loves bro most.. papa loves u most? where m i??? wad is unfair? wen we go relative hse... hu is the one? btwn u n me... tt win the most favour.. how those ppl reacts???? towards u n me??? how will i feel? think .... think...
if u sae all those stuffs in ur blog.. tt u meant nth in tis hse??? think again... hu realli is worthy of the name... u haf papa hu thinks forever for u.. u haf ah mai.... still nt enuf mehs???
u thought tt u r the onli facing the unjustice.... but u r wrong lor... remember the incident long ago??? i was accused stealing... HER money.. u send mi a message.... i wld nv forget... in the end.. i nv admintted.. continued to b accused.. even till now... nth can change.. dat i am the baddest in the family.. nt u nt others.. Nv ur? isnt tt enuf???
all tis will nt v forgotten... but i tried after becoming a christian..i really think a lot... i was lyk.. juz letting go of everitink... cos i bothers to think ... cos i bothers to stand in tt situation... cos i bothers continue to Love all of u...
u think she wans to react tis way? everi1 makes mistake ... in expressing themselves ... n stuffs... haiya.. suan ler.. duno wad else to sae... perhaps.. all this grievances made.. is juz 2 let u noe... if u think tis is unfair? tis is nt... if u think u r the most unworhty in tis hse.. u r not... the 1 tt is is mE... but i am not doin anytink abt it.. simply bcos i cant do anitink..
for many reasons wad has been goin on in my life.. the whole family shld b responsible.. but i thought tt one Love is the strongest.. nth else bad is goin thru it... but... looks lyk.. tis doesnt seems to b the way...
but wad the heck.. even if everitink falls.. i am still believing it... i am hurt.. i am sad.. i am pissed too... but i am nw silently ggoin thru it all.. Alone...
no one in the family i can depend on.. onli my few trusted frens... n the onli Him in my life.. Only them..
dancing all night long _ *
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